.:.I'm all alone.:.

Welcome to my site. I want to go ahead and say that if you have problems with people expressing their views or who are open minded, then you might want to go ahead and leave. I have an open mind, I speak it as well. I have a big mouth and it gets known. If I want to say something I will say it regardless if it pisses anyone off. I am here to write and her to vent. Anyone who has any problems with what I say has been warned. Dont go leaving fucked up comments or hating because of what I do say. If you dont like it you dont have to read it and if you dont like it dont start the bullshit. I dont have time to deal with it

Anyways thank you to everyone who comes and I do hope you enjoy the blog. I do have many views and I dont take credit for anything unless it is mine. If you want to know more then just ask me. I have nothing to hide.

pls dun take off my credits=]

The lonely entries

Friday, November 03, 2006

Blah ..

Ok, so I havent been able to update as much as I have wanted to, but good reasons. I am not normally allowed on till sometime after 10pm due to my computer is hooked to the main telephone number and line, so yeah. Anyways I have been going to bed at around 9pm every night mostly and the nights I don't is when I am not home .. like on my birthday at the concert. So, sorry for not updating as much as planned.

So, not much has really went on lately. I cut my hair off and got new glasses. Justice went as an Aviator Instructor for Halloween. I went as a Vampress. Which when I can I will upload pictures of Halloween to my computer and then post them on here.

I just found out my ex-husband and his girlfriend whom is a friend of mine too just had there baby so BIG CONGRATS to Erica, Zander, JD (Big Brother) and Alex Jr. I wish yall the best and so happy for you all. You all have an amazing family :-D

I don't remember if I said it or not, but I am now down to 237, so 1 more pound and I'll have lost 60 pounds so far, so I am really happy about that. I dont know what else has been going on ... So, I think thats it for tonight at least

I'm just so lonely... 9:28 PM 1 Memories

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Birthday, Concerts, and more

So, Monday was my birthday. What better way to celebrate then your younger brother taking you to a concert. Hallowicked to be exact. So, needless to say it was off the wall and wild as always. I'm still recovering, so this will only be a short post.

All, I can say though is never let me drink out in public. I loose my shyness shell for awhile. I was staggering around before the shows started. I met a few of the groups there and ended up hitting on someone which isn't me. I never hit on someone. Im the one who gets hit on, but never hits on the other person, but I did that night.

Anyways, before the doors even opened I was drenched in faygo, due to my brother telling a few juggalos it was my birthday. A nice 2 liter bottle of Peach Faygo was poured all over me in the freezing cold, but it was fun and I smelled like peaches.

Anyways I will add more later and I am suppose to get my hair cut today or friday so YAY

I'm just so lonely... 9:27 AM 0 Memories

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Sergeant Carter

Well, I ended up calling Sergeant Carter today after I did a rough measurements. I don't know if they are 100%, but I have them as close as possibly. Anyways he ran my measurements and weight to calculate my body fat % which is 44.74 or somewhere along there. I need to be down to 36% before they can do anything with me really. Which is fine, because he was really impressed and really happy for the 60lbs I have lost so far.

Anyways, I can go down to 195lbs and keep the measurements the same or if my measurements change and the body fat goes down then I don't have to go down to 195. So, either way I am closer and I am going to be calling the attorney sometime this week to talk about the Custody Intrustment Agreement, because I have to get that done, before I can join as well.

I will have Justice back soon enough though and my main reason for going in is to support him and that is one of the things I am going to be doing. I love him dearly and he is my life, now its time for me to get moving so I can give us a better life.

Chase has sent me some very good information to help me along the road I am close to walking down here soon. Signing the papers will begin the journey and the long walk down the road. Basic and AIT will be the roughest spots in the road, but once past those things will get easier and a lot better. Anyways I am probably rambling now.

Justice had his headstart teacher come into today too. They played with play-doh, games, puzzles, and I got to read to him. He is already learning a lot and loves Mrs. Griffith. He goes to a dental appointment with other kids from his class next week and then has a group session so all the kids can socialize. He will be happy about that since he gets to ride the bus.

Anyways, time to go ahead and post this. Meikel is laughing at me telling me I am going to make my fingers fall off because I am typing to fast and typing a lot at once, so I guess that means its time to post.

I'll post more again another time

I'm just so lonely... 9:43 PM 0 Memories

Monday, October 16, 2006

Doctors and Weight

Well, had to take Justice to go see the doctor today for his school entrance physical. He ended up having to get an Hepitiaus A vaccine, which is fine as long as it keeps him safe, but he had an allergic reaction to it before we left so we was there almost 2 hours. 30 minutes of it to make sure he was ok. So, he is 100% fine though other then a little itchy now. He is in good shape, but does need to go see a speech and eye specialist.

Also, while I was there I found out I weigh 237 now. I've lost 8 more pounds, so I am really happy about that. So, I am deffinatly closer to my goal. 237!!! I can't ever recall a time I was this thin. Yeah, so I am still fat, but to me this is thin, because I can't remember being this size before. I can squeeze into a size 18 and wear a large in shirts. So, I am excited about it all.

Katie is doing good from Surgery. She got home Friday which sucked. Was hoping they would at least have kept her one more day so she could rest, but they didnt. She is doing good though and of course I wish her the best in a speedy fast recovery.

Well, I am done for now. I'll post more soon

I'm just so lonely... 10:20 PM 0 Memories

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Sleepy

Well, I talked to dad earlier today and he said Katie's surgery went good and she is doing good. So, that was a big relief to hear. Hopefully she'll be feeling better soon. Justice has been a little monster all day. Wouldn't listen to a word anything I done was basically pointless with him. Right at the moment I am completely worn out and about to head to bed.

I don't think to much really happened today. Justice and I went and fed the baby chics and I got butted by one of the goats down there, which really did hurt. I talked on the phone A LOT today which is rare considering I haven't talked on the phone like that in a long time. I made dinner again this time I made Sloppy Joes. Justice requested it.

I did a lot of cleaning and downloading. I cleaned the house and will do it again in the morning since the lady from Headstart is coming out tomorrow to enroll Justice, so I will make sure everything is nice and clean. Yup, thats about it. Anyways I am off to bed

I'm just so lonely... 11:05 PM 0 Memories